Recent Musings:
Big time.
Friday, November 25, 2005
I'm applying to grad school in December and this morning I worked further into my personal statment. I have a lot to say.
The thing that struck me most is how, truly, my life experiences and my past have all seemed to narrow down to this one point, like a big funnel that starts wide and grand and catches everything which runs everything through to the very narrow end, where what does run through is in a strong and full and controllable stream. I've been filtered; I feel less... all-over-the-place.
It's kind of a good feeling; I'm excited. I feel like I'm focused and pointed in a good direction. I think even if I wouldn't be accepted at this school, I'd still move forward with this plan. That, my friend, is a good feeling - confident and secure. Positive.
I do feel, as well, that there are things that can deter me, and therefore, lately, I've been keeping to myself. I'm afraid that if I let too many outside forces in, forces that aren't on the same path as me, I'll be diluted and unfocused. That, to me, is not acceptable right now and I will strive hard to protect myself from those outside forces. If that includes any of you, I hope you can understand.
Alas, the future calls. I'm off to answer it's call.