Recent Musings:
Hope floats, for only so long.
Saturday, November 26, 2005
What does one do when they've lost hope? I've read articles in which tenaciousness and grit are the answer when nothing else persists. But I don't know that I've ever functioned under either of those principles, just hope. Then when I do lose hope, well, I'm usually done.
The second biggest, grandest and most important relationship of mine has lost hope. I'm not quite sure what to do, or what to say, or how to act. I can't see any light at the end of any tunnel; I can't resurrect those dreams I once had of happily ever after.
The important thing, really, is that I have survived, and yes truly, that is the number one biggest and grandest and most important relationship of all time. My spirit is somehow still intact and the sense of self-preservation has indeed preserved myself. This makes me feel stable and strong; this leaves me feeling positive. This makes me feel that if all things around me crumble, if everything I treasure and hold dear dissipates into nothingness, well then, I'll find a way to manage.
Perhaps in my big important relationship a break is all that's needed; some perspective for each of us - some time to breathe in our own lives. Or perhaps it's kaput. I don't think I know either way right now.