Recent Musings:

Hope maintained.

Sunday, November 27, 2005

I lied in yesterday's entry. My hope has been maintained and restored - not in myself or in my relationship, but in Christ. I believe things will be made right and made healthy through Him; I guess I forgot that. How quickly I was reminded.
It's odd, because I really don't feel all that more hopeful. I do feel, however, that there is a chance that things could change; I didn't feel that way previously. It's a matter of believing in myself and believing in what I want as being important.

I was struck by a Bible verse today that changed my perception and gave me a new challenge in my life: "But go and learn what this means - 'I desire mercy, not sacrifice.'" Those are words of Christ and no, I don't know what they mean quite yet. I am learning and I want to continue learning, which will make me more merciful and less sacrificial in my life, at least I hope.

Anyway, I thought it best to clear the air. I am again hopeful in a larger sense; I can only control me and my actions, but that does not mean all of my future is set in stone.