Recent Musings:
Odd logic.
Saturday, February 18, 2006
I've over-scheduled myself and have made too many plans to fit into one day. On top of that, I have a list of personal chores I'd also like to accomplish. Not happening.
Since it's slow at work, my first panic instinct was to leave work early to buy the gift I haven't bought yet... that way I'll be on time for tonight's event and tomorrow's party, I'll be able to sleep in in the morning... basically, I'll look like I have my act together without stressing out too much.
Then my logic instinct kicked in and I thought, that's absolutely ridiculous. Who would possibly expect me to leave work early to get shopping done? I need to work to make the money to buy the present; I need to work to survive. It's ridiculous to even consider!
But I considered it. In my mind it seemed more important to be on time to a party than to fulfill my adult responsibilities and work commitments. That's odd logic and I kind of wonder where it comes from - is it some social mores', some internal expectation, some female characteristic?
Upon realizing my panic instinct juxtaposed with my logic, I've decided being late for the party would be okay. It would be more human, more realistic, and perhaps, more responsible.