Recent Musings:
Wait - whose life is it, anyway?
Hey - there's an elephant in the room!
Week 1 - check!
Saturday, September 2, 2006
Today I'm doing better, but this week has been an eye-opening one! I've finished my first week of classes, with all of them being introductory classes, yet I have an idea of how my life and the next few months will be as a master's student. I'll admit, I've been feeling a little overwhelmed all week.
Granted, I am looking forward to the challenge and am excited to learn and believe whole-heartedly that I made the right decision to be here, but the doubts such as "can I do this?; I can't do this!; there's no way!; I'll never be able to talk to anyone again." have crossed my mind. Professors and other students have reminded me, and themselves, that we wouldn't be here unless the school thought we were capable. That doesn't mean I can't be nervous.
Mostly what scares me is that I'm having a hard time staying motivated. Right now our work consists of reading, and I'm a reader, but reading for hours and days upon end leaves me feeling a bit stir-crazy. And when I take breaks, like visiting new shops or talking online, I end up taking like four hour breaks. That's not a good habit to get into.
Anyway, I'm thrilled and honored and humbled to be in the life position I'm in right now. I'm amazed at how I truly believe that God has shaped me as a person over many, many years and experiences to lead me to where I am right now. It almost seems as if my life is coming to fruition and maturity now, in this place and in this time. For that, I know I can do this.