Recent Musings:
Just another day.
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
I don't know what I want to say right now. I'm torn between emotions and pressures and expectations and fatigue. I enjoy pushing myself hard for school and tackling all the projects they assign and yet I find myself wanting to veg out with a good movie or a day shopping at the mall.
I'm learning so much about the reality of society that I was sheltered from growing up. Of course my family wanted to protect me from the harshness of things and provide me with they best they could offer, yet as my eyes are opened to the realities that people struggle with every day I wish I had known sooner and could have acted on that knowledge. Even now I feel useless because I'm immersed in my own self accomplishments.
My focus for how I may want to impact society is becoming clearer as I am exposed to more facts, literature and theories. Having struggled personally to pay rent and manage bills and hold several jobs, I'm moved most by the reality of poverty and the unmet need for basic provisions such as food, clothing and housing. Perhaps I'll be able to alleviate some of those pressures for people someday.
Anyway, fall is here and I look forward to the season of hibernation and dormancy; it always feels right to snuggle with a book in autumn.