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Wednesday, November 8, 2006
You know, I snap sometimes - I just lose it. I go into this hateful anger against myself and my inabilities and I just want to hurt and destroy that part of myself (or else completely succomb to that self-hate and let it win the battle that I seem to fight with it every day).

And then it passes. I cry, I get mad, I hate myself and turn on myself, (sometimes I act out and try to punish or hurt something), and then it goes away after that release, mellowing me out. I don't think it's good. I don't necessarily like it, but it happens.