Recent Musings:
Crunch time.
Saturday, December 2, 2006
I'm fearful today, fearful of my inabilities. I'm in finals time here and the prospect of sitting down to study terrifies me because when I study I realize how much I don't know and how much I don't remember. It can be really crippling, feeling like I don't know if I'll be able to master the concepts and ideas by the day of the final.
Of course, not studying doesn't help. In fact, taking things slowly and an idea at a time usually helps. However, there's so much pressure these next two weeks! So many finals! So many concepts! So many expectations! So many chapters.
Sigh. This is procrastination, you realize. What am I really so afraid of? I don't think I'll fail; I don't think I'll even get every question wrong; I'll show up for the final; I'll be able to answer a majority of the questions correctly. I don't know. I just feel scared to even try; scared that I'm going to study and still not know. Scared that I'm going to put effort in and my efforts won't be enough. H'm.
Anyway, now's as good a time as any. Off I go.