Recent Musings:
Ring the bells, ring the bells.
She wants to roll in academia!
Down, low.
Sunday, January 14, 2007
It's been over a week since I've written... again. It's really odd because I have so many things that I really want to say and yet can't muster up the energy or time to formulate coherent thoughts. I think I'm a bit depressed.
I have a list of topics from last semester - ideas that were fresh and new, the expansion of already budding theories, the comfort I find in the touch and presence of God's nature, the realities of the world we live in - and I may as well throw the list away. I'm not feeling negative today but rather that I'm in a time-warp, where time is moving at light-speed and I'm standing still, with life whizzing past my ears. I don't know how to keep up; I don't know if I want to.
I wonder if I should drop out of school; I wonder if I should go part-time. I wonder if I should only give as much as I feel I'm able instead of giving as much as possible (there is a difference). I wonder if I'm too hard on myself; I wonder if anyone is really keeping up.
Perhaps I've lost my center, my core, that keeps me grounded in myself and the important aspects of my life. I don't know. I just know today is kind of sucky.