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Ring the bells, ring the bells.
She wants to roll in academia!
Happy February!
Sunday, February 4, 2007
It's hard to believe that January has passed, never to be lived again, and that we're in the second month of 2007. Time really does fly. I'm also entering my fifth week of classes.
So I wanted to write a post at least every week and obviously I haven't. I am busy, yes, yet I'm also uninspired. I've said to several people that I feel I haven't found my voice yet, that I'm so busy taking in new information, schedules, people, situations, that I haven't any time to filter or process or form an opinion on what I'm doing. I'm not saying this as an excuse; I really feel I'm just going through the motions and haven't responded to any of it.
I've also said that I don't want to live a life like this and that perhaps this is what adulthood is - being overcommitted, overstretched, overresponsible and void of personal thoughts, opinions or feelings. Perhaps that's why people find clubs, committes, churches, friends that are already formed and established in opinions - it saves each of us the effort of having to accomplish another task.
That's just speculation, of course, but I will say that I prefer to be less busy and I believe I function better emotionally when I have time to reflect on what's happening in my life and around it.
I have scheduled a day to relax this semester (isn't that ironic?!) and that seems to help me breathe and refocus.