Recent Musings:
An upcoming marriage.
Wednesday, May 2, 2007
You know, I have such a different perspective toward marriage now that I am heading into it. I feel like an incredibly fortunate woman for having found a man that I love and like and can laugh with, a man who's so very loyal and understanding, a man who's absolutely adorable. I'm very happy and grateful to be marrying my fiancee and I look forward to the wedding with joyful tears and an overwhelming sense of abundance and peace. I can't imagine what I did to deserve such happiness and grace.
However, had you talked to me five years ago, I would have told you that people getting married were so cliche' - they were needy, dependent, afraid to live life on their own, were hiding behind their husbands, were doing what they were "supposed to" based on societal expectations and all sorts of other mean things. I mocked wedding conversations about planning and details and really was convinced that most of the people getting married were attempting to justify their sex lives.
I can't believe what a difference one relationship, one person, can make. I can't imagine NOT marrying my man or spending my life with him. I want to apologize to all those I mocked and watched with disdain. Had I been able to understand what you were feeling, what you were experiencing, what you had found with and in that significant other, I would've been so much more supportive.
No, you probably don't know who you are specifically, but if you're reading this and got married within the last 10 years and I know you, you were probably a target of some of my misunderstandings. Please don't take it personally; I was just so ... unaware.