Recent Musings:
Should I run?
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Over the last few weeks I've had a very strong desire to just run away, to just get in my car, pick a local highway and go wherever it goes. Wherever I would land would be fine because there I wouldn't have to face the immediate stressors of my life. Life feels like too much at times - too many responsibilities, expectations, feelings, etc.
I can tell that perhaps I'm a little wiser along with being older because I didn't run (and I have in the past). I cried, I whined, I bitched and I pouted, but I didn't run. It took a few days and a lot of conversations, but I found ways to cope with my present life situation. Is it better? Not really, but at least it feels like I'm managing it better than I have in the past.
Someone asked me once why I let life get to the point where I feel the only way out is to run. I didn't have the answer then and I don't have much of an answer now; perhaps I neglect myself and my needs more than I'm aware of. Even now it seems I rely on other people's permission to take a break, watch a movie, not produce for an evening.
Well, live and learn, right?