Recent Musings:
Amazing.
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
Let's see, what can I say today? I'm amazed by many things in this life, but even more interestingly, I'm amazed by the same things repeatedly. For instance, I'm amazed that through yoga I've discovered I carry a lot of tension in my jaw and in my hips. Had I never done yoga, I would have never experienced that release of constant tension and tightness that I consistently carry in my body. This release happens nearly ever time I do yoga and each time it is so welcome, so needed.
I'm amazed at how journaling my feelings, a practice I thought I had 'always' done but recently discovered that I didn't start till about 8 years ago, somehow manages to settle and clear all the confusion in my head. Sitting down with a pen, a notebook and a box of Kleenex sets my soul right and gives me that opportunity to focus on me and what's happening inside of me, without needing to focus or be aware of anything else for that moment.
I'm amazed at music, at my ability to play the piano and how I can sit and play a song earmarked from 1996 and remember the melody, the harmony and the muscle patterns of my fingers. I'm amazed that music soothes my soul and that time alone with a stack of music and a piano can be the most engaging yet calming activity of my day.
Why am I so amazed? Well, I certainly know that I've said before how easy it is to forget the things our souls crave in order to find that inner peace. And yet I'm amazed because we can find peace and are able to find a center in the midst of the confusion of life. What an amazing and gracious gift God has given to man, to experience peace and contentment and serenity despite everything each of us endures in our daily life. I'm amazed because I experience grace quite often in these small ways; I experience the graciousness of a God who knows our pains, my pains, and gives me an opportunity to cope with and survive those pains.
I'm so grateful that I've experienced this and as I've said, quite amazed as well.