Recent Musings:
"In the night my heart instructs me."
July, 33.
Saturday, July 26, 2008
It seems like an odd time to write - the end of a month, not much to say. However, my husband and I celebrated our 1st wedding anniversary and I tend to be nostalgic, so just a few thoughts.
The weekend of our 1st anniversary we drove out of state to celebrate my parent's 50th wedding anniversary; our feat of a year seemed insignificant and measly juxtaposed with 50 years, yet I think we understand that the accomplishment of 1 or 50 years will always take us one day a time, one decision at a time, one argument at a time. Our first year has been hard - lots of adjusting, lots of needing, little space, little money. I'm proud of us for having survived thus far and am inspired for our future years together; I think we're stronger while not invincible, more aware and yet just clouded enough, more settled but not bored. We're not without our battle scars from year one; I'd say we've seen sides of ourselves and each other that neither were prepared for, but to quote a marriage therapist I once read, "marriage makes you ready for marriage." Hear, hear.
(The words are coming slowly - summer and unemployment have taken their toll on my brain.)
I've also celebrated a birthday, had several job interviews, joined the pool and neglected my stewardship responsbilities. I'm a different person than I was just 3 months ago and am confused by the change - is this me or just me without a job and responsibilities? Am I this lazy or is it just summer and I have nothing pressing to do? Did I enjoy being so busy all those many, many years of my life? I haven't been too reflective on most of it; I assume the majority of my years will be spent working and being busy and this is just an uncommon wrinkle in time.
Alright, that's a wrap; on to nothing.